For the ones that doesn't follow me in Facebook, somedays (unfortunately not every week) I attend some classes at a local Art School. As I am not a regular student, I try to do the assignments but what I like most is to sit down with the teachers and ask them questions and try to understand some of the things (still lots of them) that I don't understand.
In the last 2 years in the school and in the last 3 months in the Oatley Academy online I've been listening of how important emotions in our stories or drawings are.
As I don't recognize emotion (I have alexythimia) I have been trying for so long to understand emotions and emotional people, my second Uni career was Psychology, and although I have a broad classification of emotions now and I'm able to identify most of them, I don't know if I can have the ability to transmit them through my drawings.
When I draw people they all seem to be absent or sad. I spent the last year trying to draw different eyes and mouths but then, they just told different emotions and was really confusing.
I look "normal", I talk "normal" (sometimes when I am nervous I mix words and languages, but it seems to be funny for the person in front of me, so it's not a big deal anymore), but all my brain works different and sometimes is really hard to see that very basic things like emotions are so difficult for me. I remember my mom being really mad because I couldn't understand how she was feeling at some point. It's not that it doesn't matter to me, it's just that I don't get it.
Yesterday, I was told that it doesn't matter if I can recognize or transmit emotion like others, any trait that we have make us unique and what matters is how we tell the story. Thank you Cray Cray people!
I also was in the Picasso Museum yesterday and it was really inspiring, not the way I should think inspiration was, it was inspiring to see that most of Picasso's works hanged in there were unfinished, a lot of them were just messy sketches. There was a temporal exhibition of Dali's works that were compared to Picasso's and you couldn't really tell who painted what.
In 3 of the rooms, there were Picasso painting, were he just painted different versions of the "Meninas" of Velázquez. Copies and copies with different colors of that famous painting. So fan art was already in... :)
I learned that anything counts and that the emotion is not the one that I want to transmit, it is the emotion of the one that sees my painting.
So I have decided to just share my sketches, not only the ones that I post on Instagram, I want to share my work with all of you and please feel free to critic it.